2003-10-27 - 10:21 p.m.

dear diary,

i've been depressed.

yeah, i know you know.

i'm on a lot of painkillers.

and despite my excitement towards using prescription drugs as recreational drugs, it just doesn't feel the same this time around.

i feel old, and unhealthy, and sad.

sad sack.

but i think i'm just going to sit in these feelings for awhile.

waxing - waning