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2003-08-04 - 7:52 p.m.
dear diary,
why am i only just now finding out what an unhealthy obession i have with dying?
oh wait, now i remember.
once a year my mom orders my astrological chart and has it sent to me. the month of july and august reads something like this:
"someone close to you, possibly yourself, may die soon. mars is in retrograde in your fourth house and this suggests that you may die from a three hour, or possibly longer, anaesthetic."
i've decided on my last meal.
pizza hut mexican pizza with no tomatoes, hand tossed.
if i'm going down, i want to make damn sure i broth my hospital gown.